"I Don't Know If I Can Help Myself"
That's the confession of a serial killer when the long arm of the law finally caught up with him. He has this urge and desire to kill that he just can't help! This perverted desire just takes over him!
What is this? This is Romans 1 in action. When God judges a man, he gives him over to his sin. And he can be God's punishment against others.
Ro 1:28 And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a debased mind, to do those things which are not fitting;
29 being filled with all unrighteousness, sexual immorality, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, MURDER, strife, deceit, evil-mindedness; they are whisperers,
Sometimes, the punishment of sin is more sin!
Ps 81:11 "But My people would not heed My voice, and Israel would have none of Me.
12 So I gave them over to their own stubborn heart, To walk in their own counsels.
Don't harden yourself. If you have this desire to repent and come to Christ, don't put it off. Come to Christ now!